split personality ?

I met a boy who was full of sweet words and fake ass promises. the first chance he got was shame on him, the second time around it was shame on me. this is why i dont believe in second chances, why let someone TRY to screw you over-twice?

I laugh when i think about it,silly boy trying to play with a heart i never claimed to have. and so i've been called cold simply because i never believe the fake words or lame gestures or may be because i never say them in return.

but after another wasted time spent on this boy, i can smile and say "i'd rather be cold than have a split personality"........you know who u are (A) lol

pray,live and love :)<

three days ago i came face to face with reality. the kind of reality in movies or on the news.close enough to understand the meaning but still detached by seeing unknown faces crying on a screen.

three days ago i finally knew what it meant to have something taken away,and hope is now replaced with hopelessness, trust is now replaced with fear and the love i have for my family has trippled in size.

three days ago the Lord saved my family but today even the sound of a door closing is a constant reminder of that horrible night. and i feel pain for what my family had to go through, and my tears are streaming down more than theirs. it seems that even though i physically escaped their nighmare, i cant escape my thoughts.

three days ago i gave up for a second, for a minute,maybe for a day. but today my eyes are a litttle bit drier and i have just enough strength to do three simple things:

pray....live... and love

xoxo and adios

The lions Den

as another week rolls by i am tempted to think that life is out to get me,school issues,money issues,boyfreind issues,just too many issues.sometimes i say "God i dont think i can do this anymore" and then i wake up get dressed,and face the world.

lately whenever i see someone with a smile on their face i wonder if life is that good or are they like me,just another fake smile trying to survive in the LIons Den!

dear God

I dont know whats going on with me but there are days

when i fell totally lost and alone,this week i must admit was one of those weeks.

I know that God would never give me more than i can bear but...

dear God, i dont think i have the faith in myself that you have in me.maybe i'm not strong enough or smart enough or patient enough maybe i'm just  Not enough and i know that i have no right to say this but please God...No more!

proud to be ...........

For those of you who have never heard the name Usain Bolt get familiar.he is the current record holder for the fastest man in the world.

On sunday usain broke his previous world olympic record of 9.69seconds in the mens 100meters and replaced it with a new world record of 9.58 seconds,another amazing athlete Asafa powell also placed third in that race.

As you can imagine this is a proud moment for jamaica i feel an immense sense of pride in our athletes for the amazing job they are doing in germany.

We have come a very long way as a people and we continue to support all our talented jamaicans who are making their mark on the world and representing their country every step of the way

Everyone reading this blog please leave a message with your name and the country you are proud to be from.i'll go first:

I AM ALICEA AND I AM PROUD TO BE jAMAICAN!

Xoxo and adios

complicated!

Whenever i have too much time to think i wonder about everything,why do strangers make me feel more special than the people that should?

sometimes words, no matter how insincere can put a smile on any face,

i dont need to hear that i'm beautiful i just need to feel beautiful.

i dont need to hear that i'm special i just want to be treated special.

i dont need to hear that you want to be with me,i just want you to be with me.

life is not half as complicated as we pretend it to be.

life can be simple

love me

appreciate me

call me

talk to me

and be with me,

and yet even these simple things prove too complicated for some to handle!

when i'm misunderstood

Everyone has an outlet for those days when they feel completely misunderstood,alone or sad.

my outlet is poetry,it is the talent that i am most proud of.

This poem entitled 'death of my heart' was written long ago after a bad breakup,it is one of my faves and i hope it inspires you to find an outlet for whatever you may be going through!

So i mourn the death
the death of my heart
it should've been a beautiful thing
and it was at the start
but then things changed
my heart stopped beating
i took a test of love and realized that i was cheating
the tears of my soul tried to warn me
the blood pouring out showed me signs
its not that i could'nt see i just pretended to be blind
i guess i was a fool to believe it
in a word too strong to define
i must have been searching for something
i knew i would never find
i hope it doesnt wish to visit me again
all my childish inhibitions must one day end
i have come to terms with it
i know we have to part
and so i mourn the death
the death of my heart!

xoxo and goodbye

lessons from my ex's

To the ones that taught me how to love,thank you for showing me what love is and letting me go when it no longer existed.

To the ones that could'nt find the time,thanks because i took that time to find myself.

To the ones that always wanted more,i hope now you realise that "THIS ONE" was more than enough.

To the ones that stayed on as 'friends' you mean more to me than any ex could.

To the ones that taught me nothing,well....shame on you.

but truthfully i appreciate you all, the good ones, the bad ones, the crazy ones and yes even you (my so called love) thanks for making my journey nothing short of an adventure.

xoxo and adios!

summer blues

what has got me feeling so blue? simply this,the summer is almost over and i have accomplished.....NOTHING!

I had so many plans,unfortunately they all revolved around getting a job and since that didnt happen i am left feeling hopeless,helpless and my bank account is getting less and less and less.

so what can i possibly do now? i have searched endlessly for online jobs but they all seem to end in dispair,i have been scammed so many times i have lost count but i will keep hope alive.

i refuse to let the summer end without achieving one single goal and so i woke up this morning with a task at hand and after countless hours i can safely say that i have accomplished my task.

so it is with great pleasure that i bid my summer blues farewell and can proudly look forward to the rest of my summer!

beauty on a budget

For all my beautiful friends suffering from broke-ass-ness,your worries are over i am here to save you.

here are some free,all natural beauty tips to help with everything from split ends to oily skin and it will cost you absolutely nothing!

HAIR

1.mayonnaise moisturizer

directions: add a large helping of mayonnaise to wet hair from roots to end and cover for 15-20 minutes with a steam cap,shampoo hair as usual and viola! beautiful soft hair! (tried and proven).

2.egg and honey deep treatment

a very good deep treatment is also eggs and honey.simply mix the eggs with a spoonful of honey and add warm water,add to hair and cover with steam cap, leave on for 10-15 minutes then shampoo.you will be left with soft shiny hair,(this is one of my favourites)

ps.another hair tip,add 1 teaspoon of honey to 4 cups warm water and spray on hair for a nice shiny look!

FACE

1.carrot facial mask

2-3 carrots/4 tablespoon honey

cook then mash carrots,mix with honey and apply to skin for 10 minutes,rinse with cool water.

2.lemon/egg mask

first, mix half a lemon with one beaten egg white,leave on for 10 minutes then rinse with warm water.this mask can also be left on overnight.

ps.avocado can be added to any of these recipes,it is a good moisturizer for hair and skin.

These are my tried and true,cost effective beauty tips for those days when spending money just is'nt an option.

but hey, being broke is no excuse to not look absolutely beautiful!

xoxo and adios